Sunny California

Sunshine

2011-01-10T08:04:00.000-08:00

Oh where Oh where did the warmth go???

It is 32 degrees f outside and pretty cold. I think it is time for this county to start warming up.

Ok, Ok, I know it only has been cold for a few weeks but we do not have the appropriate clothes to wear, just standing at the bus stop I said to Nathaniel - you should have put a jacket on!!, He replied I did, pointing to his "jacket", I said that isnt really a jacket mearly a light sweatshirt!!

He put his hood up and the bus arrived, I know once he is in class he will be toasty warm!!!!

Keep warm out there!!

Gluten free

2011-01-03T19:46:00.001-08:00

So mid November I decided to try a gluten free diet. I will tell you this was after some debate but eventually my will was stronger than my need for bread.

Here is my story!

I left home 21 years ago and soon after that I started with a lot of gastrointestinal issues, these include, vomitting, cramping, severe pain, constipation or diarrhoea, terrible exploding smelly gas and a feeling of lonliness.

Seen by many specialists throughout the last 21 years, which did include many diagnostic examinations, they said it was a lactose intolerance and irritable bowel syndrome and started me on medication. After a year on pills which were only meant to be a 6 week course and no improvement I gave up trying different diet's but finding it hard to isolate anything that caused problems.

years pass, nothing changes and then I started reading up about Gulten and how it affects the body so 2 months ago I thought - lets give it a go.

I must admit the 10lb i lost instantly was encouraging but other changes were occuring, my psoriasis hich I have been struggling with for over 3 years has almost disapeered over night, I have more energy and I have less mood swings (although Simon may disagree)

So I am now on a gluten free diet and when I have had some by accident it has once again caused havock to my intestines.

Thinking back, growing up my diet was mostly meat veg and potatoes, a well balanced diet, leaving home allowed me to try pasta's pizza's and sandwiches by the barrel load!!

I am seeing a nutritionist tomorrow to review if I need any nutritional suppliments and to ensure I stay on the straight and narrow!!

With this sucess how could I not!!

A bit of family history!

2011-01-02T10:10:00.000-08:00

So we asked dad to some questions for a school project and here was some of his interesting facts!

I dont want to waste this info so here it is

FAMILY NOTES
All your Grandfathers served King(Queen) and Country Grandad Peter Royal Air Force Cold War

Great Grandad George Main Royal Engineers XXX.Corps – France-Germany (Lübeck)

Great Grandad George Wood Royal Engineers 51.Highland Division in North Africa, Italy, France-Germany

Gt.Gt. Grandad William Main Infantry The Boar War in South Africa

Gt,Gt, Grandad George Smith Infantry First World War – France

Gt.Gt.Gt.Grandad John Main no Service – lived during the “Long Peace”

Gt.Gt.Grandad George Smith – was a Railway Passenger Train Guard and was Yard Foreman Of the Edinburgh Waverley Station – One of the biggest in Great Britain.

Grandad Peter (Petrus) – Has a great Model Railway – German Federal Railways 1956-71

Gt.Gt.Grandad William Main – His Hobby was Photography

Gt.Grandad George Main – Great Golfer, and played the banjo and was a super crooner (like Bing Crosby) Gt.Grandad George Wood – was a shooting Champion and a Great Gardener

Thanks dad for this history!!

Happy New Year!!

2011-01-01T08:01:00.000-08:00

So, another year has passed us by and a big year for me has arrived! We celebrated the event at a friends party with Nathaniel strugging to make it to midnight, as soon as we drank our drink and said happy new year he was wanting to head home!! I must admit I do feel a little sleepy this morning, but I did not drink too much alcohol!!

This year I will turn 40. Having witnessed many people, feeling concern over this number I am not afraid because I know we all get older and there is nothing we can do about it what we can do is keep ourselves as healthy and physically fit as we can on a day to day basis.

I do not really have any hopes or dreams or goals for this year as most of the things I have hoped for in the past are not going to happen.

I just hope to keep my head down and work hard and I know 2012 will be here before we know it!! I am not wishing my life away just thinking that for "nothing special" to happen is a whole easier than dealing with crazy stressful, upsetting events!

So sit down relax, and enjoy 2011

Happy New year

good ol Hogmanay!!

2010-12-31T09:22:00.001-08:00

Well, recently I have cut out Gluten ( more about that later)and had a renewed feeling of energy, is it that false sence of security from the bottom of the wine glass or am I really feeling healthier and stronger??

I discovered the Nike plus for Iphone a few months ago but due to an achilles injury I was unable to run for quite some time so here I am back at day 1 setting a few goals

The first is to just go and run and enjoy it, the second get some clothes to fit, i swear my trousers were falling down on the route!!

So today, 8am, off I went iphone in pocket nike plus running and listening to my favourite tunes, i managed to 2.87 miles in 30 mins, no record breaking speed but I completed it , didnt walk and ran the hill!!

Hip hip hurray for me.....

happy New year to you all!!!!

now go shower!!!!

Have you done anything fun lately??

2010-09-08T18:11:00.000-07:00

So someone asked me lately - what are you doing for fun. The look on my face must have looked like -"are you crazy?" I then thought of course I do fun things, I thought and thought and nope, I do nothing I just currently "function" moving from one task to another.

exercise, breakfast dropoff, work, pick up, play dates, dinner, bedtime, knackered! This doesn't include, house keeping laundry groceries, and meal planning but i do it all

So what do you do, I need ideas I am thinking of trying to come up with something realistic, I used to be involved with life, not just letting it pass me by!!

All suggestions welcome

A brand new day!!

2010-09-07T08:38:00.001-07:00

Camping was so much fun and right here in Marin on Alice Eastwood campground. So near and yet so far, able to check out, hike a lot and enjoy the company of good friends.

Although I did enjoy some alcohol, I did not go over board at all on either food or drink.

The problem came when i returned home and people started posting pictures. uug fat me and horrid fat pictures of me!!

I must do something to improve myself very soon!!

Charting my points!!

Satuday

2010-09-04T07:37:00.001-07:00

So today we are having our first family vacation of the year. Yes we do not do very well going away as a family! This vacation will be short lived and I am afraid it will just be 2 nights camping with the theater group but I know we will have fun.

Next year we must plan some time away properly or maybe we could squeeze something into this year.

Ahh

Now off to pack up the house in order to go camping locally for 2 nights

Well Hello!!

2010-08-25T10:29:00.000-07:00

Dear readers,

Let me introduce myself I am a delinquent blogger "why" you may ask - no reason just lazy!!

Hope to be better at blogging soon and give you lots more drivel to read,

Love

Me!!

Well nice to be back, haven't update this site in a while as I was doing my "skinnythinking challenge" but that fell flat as I traveled around and didn't have a laptop to write my stories, I considered restarting or continuing on by decided to not bother and stick with this!

been a busy summer, camps, UK holiday, seeing grandparents, cousins, friends was lovely to catch up and now back at school.

Still desperate to loose some weight, worked out at boot camp and the gym this morning so now i just have to make sure I don't eat those burned off calories for lunch!!

With school back I am heading to work 4 days a week, going to give it a shot and hopefully can contribute something to those homebound people in Marin. Trying also to make more "me " time.

OK got to stop it is hot, more soon!!

See ya!!

Out of the fog

2010-06-11T07:06:00.000-07:00

So after feeling so sick for so long i finally feel like I am heading out of the fog and back into my normal self.

It has taken a while and I am so glad I am beginning to get better. I was all packed and ready for boot camp this morning but unable to sleep until around 2am I gave up on that idea for a bit of rest. If this illness has taught me anything it is that I need rest to keep going. I have had a few false starts but I am feeling positive this is the one that means I am BETTER!!

I am still charting my progress daily on http://skinnythinking71.blogspot.com check it out and join the revolution on facebook!

Have a great weekend!!

Latest rant

2010-06-01T21:37:00.000-07:00

So I had a mental breakdown on Monday feeling like I never get to do things for myself but just for the rest of my family and that got me thinking - what would I do if I had the time and a stark reality hit me.

I left home at 18 (1990)started nursing for 3 1/2 years my life was studying nursing, once qualified I worked a few years then on top of working full time I started to study for my 4 year degree course online, which during that time I got married and eventually moved to California and finished my degree, so i had a year off in the USA in which i studied and applied for my nursing license, and during my free time I did a theater production of Oliver and did tap classes. By now it was 2002 I got a job, had a baby, kept working, baby grew up, wanted to do activities I took him and ended up doing all this "mandatory" volunteering.

So that is me up to date and if I say pretty pathetic.

I have basically done nothing for myself except earn a living.

What would I like to do - I have no flipping idea. I like to cook but am too fat to eat, so there is a problem.

Any suggestions to my dilemma will be very welcome!!

Last big rehearsal

2010-05-12T21:18:00.000-07:00

So today was the last big rehearsal and to be honest i am so glad mainly because we as a family are just so tired, it will be so nice to have Nathaniel back to his cheery self after being able to rest properly and go to bed on time for a change and eat some healthy meals!!

He has I think enjoyed the process but understands the need for a break!

He has little mermaid in 3 weeks, after that who knows where his stage career will head!!

So no complaining lots of smiles and 3 more shows!!

here goes!

Skinny thinking

2010-05-10T08:41:00.000-07:00

So facebook is terrible for games but every so often you find something interesting, I am finding out and following Laura Katleman-Prue and her idea about skinny thinking,

today is day 1 of her 91 day plan to get everyone "skinny thinking" so here goes!

Today you have to focus on at least 5 minutes of exercise Freedom is possible.

I also managed to get back on track with boot camp after family responsibilities stopped me from going last wednesday and Friday, luckily the leader is kind and does not shame me for not going!! Those push ups were extra hard today!

I am also going to try and do at least 30 mins strength and yoga on the wii to get my balance better!!

You can follow my progress on my personalised blog - skinnythinking71

Happy Monday!!

Friday arrives

2010-04-30T07:32:00.000-07:00

Fridays are always hard for me they signal the weekend and I know we as a family"enjoy the weekend" with meals out, drinking alcohol and generally having a good time.

I am working this weekend so have gone out and bought myself some salads to see me through thus avoiding me rushing my work to enjoy a fry up with Nathaniel and Simon and hopefully feeling better about myself.

It is too early to notice any weight loss but I have been tracking my food intake and I even bought the light for my bike and rode to boot camp this morning and it was fine. To be honest this is the most fun I have had with exercise in a very long time. So thanks to Keli and the other mum's for inspiring me to keep going, I almost look forward to the alarm going off at 5 am and next week I will definitely start the swimming on a tuesday and thursday and look forward hopefully to some positive news next friday in the shape of maybe a pound or two down!

Happy Friday and enjoy your weekend - in moderation as always!!

The next challange

2010-04-28T06:52:00.000-07:00

Come on, there is always the next challange, for me it has to be loosing weight.

I would like to loose 40lb but lets start with the first 10!

I am being really good and going to bootcamp and I am putting in my all into it and it is hard (thanks Keli) but hard is good - there is no point if it is too easy!

Now I need to really focus on charting what food I eat and doing more exercise at home.

Lets see by the weekend if I have made a dent into that first 10lb's

Life in the old dog yet!

2010-04-25T20:02:00.001-07:00

So I embarked on a 10k run this weekend. It was not something I expected to be good at, over weight and under trained I felt that this could be a necessity to spur me on the better health and fitness.

The packet pick up day is always exciting, I enjoy seeing the booths and the spirit of the race, I dont get this excitement at home as Simon and Nathaniel dont really understand how hard these things are to participate in or how fun they can be!

So this morning I headed off at 6.30 to park and get the shuttle to the start! Surprisingly it was pretty quiet I am used to bigger Marathons and there were onlt 700 people registered for all races and 112 for the 10k, we waited for our start which ended up being delayed due to poor planning and the 1/2 marathoners were still coming up the hill in an abundance when we were due to start on the same path, so a slight delay then.....

Suddenly I am off racing down the hill from Mcnears beach telling myself, go slow warm up it will be fine, the first mile was easy and then my achiles on both legs started hurting, every step hurt and I was regretting my decision to run, I struggled on back up the hill passing mile 2 and mile 3, by mile 4 the sun was out and high in the trees and I was warming up, 4,5 and 6 was pretty much a downhill then a back uphill and the last .4 was trail along the seashore.

My official time was 49.21 a good 6 seconds off my personal best and I placed 13th in the women, 25th overall (men and women combined) and 4th in my age group!

Not bad indeed!!

Now as keli would say - go out and run!

A Walkathon

2010-04-23T05:21:00.000-07:00

So today was the school walkathon, much care was taken not to sign nathaniel up for too much per lap as you never know how much they will do. Last year in kindergarten it was very controlled, maybe it will be the same this year - at least they limit the time.

It is always so much fun to see the kids with pure excitement on their faces and in their voices!

We headed off to the route and everyone was so excited and the sun was blazing down.

The kids all hurriedly headed round their first lap and as you can imagine the last lap was more of a struggle, it was also very funny to see the boys racing round trying to beat their buddies while the gilrs strolled around without a care in the world!

Funny how when grown up the roles reverse;)

THe Scouting Movement

2010-04-19T09:12:00.000-07:00

So Nathaniel and I spent the last 4 days at the scouting 100th Anniversary jamboree, camping for me always fills me with dread, seems like too much work but once I am there and my tent is up I usually have a good time.Baden Powel has achieved greatness with the organisation that he formed over 102 years ago and following 100 years ago with girl guides/scouts and the Boy scouts of America. Having moved through the girl guide movement in the UK I learned many skills and mostly I would say "organisation", "thinking for yourself" and "teamwork" were some of the valued skills I used as I left school and started my career. I helped celebrate the 75th Anniversary 25 years ago.

For Nathaniel I wanted him to experience that too and learn some independent thinking but also working as a team towards a goal.

The 100th Anniversary event was probably a bit wasted on him at 6 years old he doesnt understand the point of the scouting movement but instead he just has a good time camping with his friends and at some point you just have to let them do that! Friendship is a good thing to learn at cub scouts too!!

The boys enjoyed the usual activities of Archery, Soccer, BBguns, lighting fires and many other things as well as the more fun events of campfire and smores.

So, scouting continues to bring boys (and parents) of all ages over to enjoy and c

elebrate learning and friendship and i don't think there is any sign of it stopping anytime soon!!

Another new one

2010-04-15T08:41:00.000-07:00

Every year there are new TV series, and some make it and some don't and every few years you find one that seems to "capture" the hearts of the world. Glee seems to be one of those that has hit it off with most people, as friends eagerly post "spoilers" on facebook and such joy to know you are ahead and know what is going on that say the UK it gives a strange excitement - it is a TV show!! The last one that had this much "buzz" was probably Ugly Betty in 2006 and prior to that Lost in 2004 (22nd september). The fates of these programs are not just in the audience but how the writers write so time will tell if "Glee" can maintain the phenomenon and keep going for many seasons, Ugly betty went quickly down hill and has now been cancelled, Lost, lost it's way around the 3rd season but came back strong for the 4th and now we are looking at the final season with just a few episodes left - I hope it makes sense!

Many of these series have dips and peaks and some people tolerate more than others but the main thing is just go out and enjoy what you can.

Our current favourites

Flash Forward

Nurse jacky

Lost

Brothers and Sisters

Just let me lie down!

2010-04-12T18:55:00.000-07:00

So today I read an article from the new "Real Simple" magazine (may edition). Can I call you back in 15 years got me at the title, how I so feel like that some days and the past month it has been just definitely like that. Kristin Van Ogtrop author of "just let me lie down" writes about balancing kids, work and sleep - she leaves the husband out of it (for a minute). She talks about us having lots of time when we are young and suddenly balancing everything in our lives in our 40's it brings us to a subject of friends, she never thought she would have to "choose" to see friends rather than it be a natural thing, she notes that "friendships need consistent attention and occasional aggressive pruning" and really having to give up a few minutes of alone time to see a friend it becomes a juggling game.

I did as she did in the article and that was to draw up a pie chart and divide it up with the things you do in a day and boy I discover the same as her, I have very little time alone to do the things I love - yes I do not have cleaning the toilets on my "love to do" list.

I pride myself in being efficient and a good time manager but when asked to go out and I cant make it (babysiter problems or just exhausted) I am often made to feel guilty, but honestly i am tired or I do have to do the cleaning/tidying/shopping, god forbid I go to bed early! Is it because nathaniel is an only child that I take him to all these activities - I doubt it cause if he wasn't doing them he would be on playdates, but I sure feel like I spend a lot of time ferrying to his activities (14 hrs per week), and still working about 30 hrs a week minimum and volunteering and still having food on the table a smile on my face and a clean pair of knickers on!

I try to be good at everything, but it is more than obvious that as I take care of everyone else, it is me that goes down hill in the food I eat and the clothes I wear and the lack of exercise I do and the lack of friends that I see. I really do try and keep in touch as much as I can but it can be a struggle during these busy times! I am sorry.

So if I am sitting alone when I hit 80, please come and say hello, I know being busy isn't an excuse but sometimes it is a reason!

Happy Monday

Happy Easter and moving on!

2010-04-05T06:46:00.000-07:00

So yesterday we had our "Easter party" it was so much fun, lots of friends and their kids to relax with. People "thank" me or tell me I am crazy but for me there is nothing better than getting to hang out with friends! If my house was bigger I could invite more but I felt it was the right number to keep an eye on and also socialise with everyone.

It was also a sad time as our friends Thomas, Elise and Elie are heading back to Montreal tomorrow for good. Now as experts from moving backwards and forwards around the world I can certainly understand how they feel and once Elise leaves there will certainly be a lot more wine in the Napa valley since everytime we get together we try to empty the place!

Elise has painted a beautiful picture which stands pride of place in our dining room and she has given up her 2 rugs.

We will miss them very much but wish them well as they head home to their Mother land and then for adventures in Lebanon after that

To my friends, THANK YOU for being our friends

podcasts

2010-04-01T19:12:00.000-07:00

So, I have recently re-discovered podcasts! As I drive around all day in my car I have tried music, radio and audio books but they all just don't grab me, either too repetitive or need me to concentrate more so I have popped back into itunes and starting downloading some podcasts and you know what??? It is working,

I am cheerier when i get to my patients home and easy to pause and restart.

So what have I been listening too.

Well - "the Archers" a UK soap opera has me listening to a little bit of craziness

Chris Moyles radio show is always a fun favourite

Sarah and vinnie Secret show is another daily favourite (not for the kids)

medical matters - from the BBC keep me upto date with some favourite topics

World book authors, give an insight and interview with an author of a book.

Any journey you take is always better with companion ship so next time you are out and about - check out the huge podcast directory and find something you are into!! They will keep you company all the way!!

whoa slow down!

2010-03-31T07:40:00.000-07:00

When did life start going so fast. I really need a break from life as we have been so busy so I sit down and try to figure it out.

Looking at my calendar is crazy! No free weekends till after we do "big" middle may and then Nathaniel is in Little Mermaid, of course working every 3rd weekend only leaves me with some choice as opposed to "great choices"

So what can I do?? I could complain, spend many times sulking at going here or there, or - I could make it an "event" take a picnic to our commitment, even a beer, volunteer or where possible and without trying to look like a freak - run and exercises while Nathaniel is "doing his stuff"

Try to put a spin on the boredom of it all, you can do it and I am really trying,

Now back to downloading some podcasts - will talk about that one tomorrow!!!

Have an amazing WEDNESDAY!!

Another Monday morning

2010-03-29T21:08:00.000-07:00

Don't you think that Mondays come round WAY too fast, no sooner are you celebrating on a friday evening then suddenly you are awake at 5am ready to start a new week.

I am still unfortunately still hurting from injuring my achilles on thursday I am trying to do "flat stuff but ice rest and painkillers seem to be the only thing that helps, it was particularly sore after boot camp this morning.

This week there is a little rain forecast which I know the plants will like and to be honest it helps get some cleaning done inside!

Our new computer system goes "live" on April 1st and honestly I feel like I understand it but do I/???????? I will keep playing with the phone hoping to discover secret treasures so that I can make charting easy!!

I have been trying to figure out how to fit in a weekend away soon, just the 3 of us, it would do us all good but I don't see any window of opportunity, which is a real shame, still it saves me having to make the effort to research and book somewhere.

Oh well by the end of the week we will be in april - very hard to believe !

I keep promising to make more time for myself I should start with a haircut and a pedicure, lets try to schedule my hair cut for next week!!

We shall see!!

Have a great week!!

lesson well learned

2010-03-25T09:53:00.000-07:00

So today I went on a last minute hike, I was excited to go but the steep uphill at the beginning really caused a problem for my Achilles in both my legs, I got my hiking partners to stop for a bit but they were anxious to keep moving, the pain decreased for a bit but the constant uphill and the fast pace they were pursuing made the hike more and more uncomfortable - if they had slowed down it would have been easier.

Eventually I had to give up (I never give up but they were moving too fast and I was not able to allow my legs to recover). So I did what I NEVER do and know better to and that was to return home, they knew I didn't know the route, but were not volunteering to come back down with me, very embarrassed I left feeling very very sad.

So the inevitable happens, I got lost I was scaling the side of blackstone canyon with a dead cell phone (typical) trying to figure out which way was down.

I decided the path I was on was obviously the wrong one so I retrace my steps and eventually find the way down.

So the moral of the story is, if you go hiking with someone, stay with them, even if it means coming back earlier than planned.

Safety is the most important thing, I would do it for you!

Also Little legs cant walk as quick as long legs.

Now on to figure out about how to resolve my tendonitis before my race at the end of next month!

Will this one stick??

2010-03-17T13:06:00.000-07:00

So, lately I have been struggling to stay focused and give myself any "me time" my who life revolves around everything else sometimes it gets a little hard to remember where I am underneath all that.

So today i signed up for the Marin county 10k, a 10K will be easy for me but maybe I can get in shape along the way and get a decent time!

So that will be fun, continuing with the boot camp and trying to use "hanging around time" to go for a run/walk of the other day i had a manicure!

I am a much happier person when i do a little bit of self care.

So your challenge this week, take an hour for yourself - the world can wait!

Another year gone!

2010-03-15T06:58:00.000-07:00

So over the weekend I celebrated turning 39 - always celebrating never depressed! What will happen as I take the next year forward and my next birthday - I anxiously await the surprises in store for me not dread the sign of middle age and old age approaching! My thirties to me have actually been the best time so far of my life, one where I had my son and became physically fit and reaching goals I never thought I would achieve in the shape of several half marathons.

So as you can imagine, there was a lot of eating and drinking and celebrating as I turned 39, but the most important of all were the wonderful well wishes and spending time with Simon and nathaniel (the melting pot wasnt bad either)

However now spring is upon us it is time for me to stop over indulging and get back into shape and I have joined a local boot camp and although some things I struggle now, I am hoping within a month I start seeing some strength return.

I can do it!! watch this space!!

Have a great week!!

The loneliness of the long distance runner

2010-03-11T09:16:00.000-08:00

The loneliness of the long distance runner - what does that mean to you?? I read an article probably last year about how lonely it can be training to run long distance events. I agreed at the time but recently (after having taken a break from running) since I have been trying to get out an about running more i have seen a different side to that statement!

Running alone can be lonely but so can any thing if you are doing your journey alone, I am not always alone but when I am I have stopped listening to my ipod and started listening to the world around be, trees swaying in the wind, birds tweeting, cars driving past and strangers saying "hello". For me I am definitely not wanting to sprint to the finish line but instead "enjoy the journey and help those who need company or support.

On a recent bike ride Nathaniel told me "I cant go on, I will never make it home" (we were 2 houses from home but if anyone has taken on a hard journey they know that feeling). Don't worry I said I Know you can do it and if you are really struggling you can just get off your bike and walk the rest of the way, he cycled on and made it home. The next day that same ride was a little easier.

So the morale of today is...enjoy today whatever challenges you have and you can overcome anything alone or with the friends around you

happy Thursday

WOW

2010-03-09T21:42:00.000-08:00

Wow,

It is amazing how quickly the past few weeks have gone, what with me working 3 - 4 days a week and Nathaniel signed up for everything imaginable, it has been hectic/stressful and definitely tiring.

So I keep him on a tight schedule so we get everything done and he still manages to get some rest. Not much for me though!

This past weekend we managed to finally get me a bike and nathaniel graduated to his 20 inch one, so sunday we ended up doing 2 bike rides which totaled over 10 miles, pretty good and I have continued to ride every day and even to school twice today!

I have tried to be more active around the house figuring that it will help as I have felt pretty isolated and claustrophobic sitting in a car all morning visiting patients then driving nathaniel around all afternoon so moving on my available days is much better!

I have once again embarked on a bootcamp at 5.30am but only twice a week and I fit in bike rides and runs in between time and a bit of gardening - all to keep me busy! That said it is 10pm and i am tired.

One good thing though the weather has been wonderful with just a bit of wind by the end of the day!! That I can definately handle!!

Good days

2010-02-05T07:15:00.000-08:00

Nathaniel did great at his 2 auditions, today he will hear if he gets any lines in "the little mermaid" he isn't bothered if he doesn't!

It has been a beautiful few days and that just lifts your spirits so much, I definitely feel that my running and exercise has also improved my moods and allows me to deal with pretty much anything with a smile on my face!

I am sure now we will see more "good days" than bad and the days are getting a little longer now too, so much to look forward to over the next few weeks!!

Have a wonderful weekend!! Are you doing anything fun??

Audition Day

2010-02-01T14:11:00.000-08:00

So, Nathaniel has finally decided to audition for some plays! he has not been pushed in any way but he decided on his own that he wants to do The Little Mermaid - at school, and "Big the musical" with Simon.

So the auditions are tonight, he knows both the songs and fingers crossed he does well, I can almost feel myself wanting him to do well, but I will stay away!! He is fine with a small part, i am sure if he continues to do this as he gets bigger, he will have more idea about "getting parts" and the disappointment when you don't get what you want, but for now, it is really enjoyable just watching him enjoy the process and be so excited about having 2 auditions today!!

sunny??

2010-01-28T12:50:00.001-08:00

Sunny California is back being sunny again after nearly 8 days of continuous rain, once again i have a smile on my face and a spring in my step,

How wonderful it is to live in the beautiful part of the country!!

I may even walk to pick Nathaniel up from school, he can bike home!

maybe!!

Rain?

2010-01-24T08:36:00.000-08:00

So it has been raining, for the past week?? We had some sun yesterday but boy, I am in need of a gentle run outside!! YOu get itchy feet with weather like this, course I could be popping on the wii fit, but instead I am catching up with all the winter sports on the TV, watching the ice skating, skiing and bobsleighing, all looks so much fun!

We know the weather will improve but in the meantime, I am quite enjoying hanging out at home with Simon and Nathaniel and playing some board games!!

Getting those old brain cells working.

Oh and I am now back on facebook after an absence of 6 days but able to have a much more "healthy relationship" with it now!!

truely obbsessed

2010-01-15T13:57:00.000-08:00

I know I loved to be on facebook and chat with people but it has become like a littel friend to me and that is wrong so 48 hours ago I deactivated my account for a bit to see how I cope and then I can re activate it and have a healthier relationship with it!

So much stuff gets left while my 5 minutes on facebook becomes 1 hour or more time flies on facebook.

So how have the past 48 hrs been, well ok apart from every five minutes a new status idea pops in my head, I am sure as time goes on that will lessen!

I am however not worried about my dying crops or rotting cafe!

Life for me is in this world with real live people and when i can be trusted to use it again as a means of social communication - not obsession I will get back on.

Meantime, more concentration on my family and my work! Course I am not cutting myself off from the world I have email, blog and phones!!

Back to reality!!

thursday thursday

2010-01-14T07:42:00.000-08:00

So after a disaster of a day yesterday I am starting Thursday of with a more positive attitude. Up dressed had breakfast and ready for a brisk walk with some friends.

I even have the laundry in the washer and it is not 8am yet.

The only thing you will see on my computer is email and weight watchers!

More later!!!!!!

Just back from a 3 hour hike - weather is beautiful sunny and warm, I am so lucky!! Feeling positive, lovely soup for lunch, then maybe a car wash!!

Feeling tired

2010-01-13T16:11:00.000-08:00

I think January does that to you, makes you feel tired after all the food of the festive season and the darker mornings, oh I cant wait till some good weather returns although today has been lovely 62 and sunny!!

So today I disabled my facebook account, I got the wrong day for my CPR class and feel I need to make some changes in my life, getting more over weight and lazy and more pressures from work. I pretty much have the choice of work more or quit with my job so i will probably take a little while to think that one over, the job is very stressful and my head is certainly not in a good place. One thing I do know however is that being on facebook isnt healthy, looking at my iphone isnt healthy! Just think of all the things I could be doing with my time instead of looking at what everyone else is doing!! Definately time for me to waken up!!

Minestrone soup

2010-01-05T17:42:00.000-08:00

I have been trying some new recipes over the past couple of days and both have been great, moroccan lamb and Minestrone soup. Neither was difficult to make and in fact I will make the minestrone more now I realise how easy it was sometimes you just don't think!

I enjoy trying new things and am going to make meatloaf in the slow cooker for tomorrow's dinner (hopefully)

I definately find I go through moments of cooking a lot then not much!

Have you cooked anything good lately??

Ski day!

2010-01-04T09:50:00.000-08:00

THis is what I have been waiting for all Christmas Holidays - to try my skiing skills out again at Sugar Bowl in Lake tahoe!

We drove up and eagerly got our ski's and headed to the slopes!

Things did not start well, my feet were "killing me" but a quick solution - I had them fastened too tight, then once headed for the lift on the nursery slope, Nathaniel slipped - he started to get frightened - being the caring parents we were we shoved him back on and headed up the hill, it became apparent to us immediately that Nathaniel had forgotten everything (sigh), I knew my skills were not good enough to teach him, but we managed a few times up and down before his lesson!!

Once I sent him packing on his lesson I headed for the top

of the baby slope to see if i could remember what to do, I could so up the mountain I went.

I went down the blue run first "trailblazer" this was more "advanced" than the green run but I thought I would give it a go, it was amazing - yes i pretty much managed and the snow was perfect, I never thought I would "understand" snow jargon, but couldn't help myself saying wow this powder is amazing, it truly was a fabulous experience, I ended up doing the blue and the green run (pioneer) 5 times each and my first time down Pioneer was a great improvement from last year where I got stuck half way down and burst into tears unable to go on (course I had to finish). This time I managed mostly weaving but when I felt Ultra brave I would speed down with my ski's parallel. I did those runs with ease and confidence and am keen to try some different runs next time - it was just the mountain is in two bits and didnt want to miss the end of Nathaniel's lesson!!!! He did wonderful too and moved up a level for next time - woo hoo!!

A big thank you to Simon for driving us up and back, especially as we were delayed with traffic coming home and I had hurt my wrist and couldnt drive!

01-01-10

2010-01-01T08:11:00.001-08:00

Here we are at January 1st 2010, another year has started and we always look on with optimisim and excitement, as we make all these "plans and resolutions" to be better than the previous year, be it - eat less, exercise more, spend more time with family, learn to cook, garden etc etc.

For me, this year there will be no list, no deadlines, but motivating myself from within without the fear of a deadline! Be happy and healthy, have money for food on the table, enjoy being a family in our lovely home, that is the dream this year, I felt like I spent most of last year being sick, once all the apartment renovations started. Oh dear here I go, I already have a list - see how easy it is.

Anyway, what I am trying to say is you may make "plans" in your head over the next few days or months and if they come true - fantastic but if they don't - dont beat yourself up about it we are human and doing the best we can!

Enjoy the day and the year and

A very HAPPY new year to you all

Here are some important dates in 2010

Opening day of the Winter Olympics - February 28th

87 Academy Awards - March 7th

Mothers day - UK March 14th

Easter Sunday - April 4th

Mothers Day - US May 9th

Fathers Day - June 20th

Thanksgiving - November 25th

It's Hogmanay

2009-12-31T07:56:00.000-08:00

So where have I been - you may ask, or may not depending, I have been a terrible blogger, and my vice?? The dreaded sucking all your time "Facebook" with so many old and new friends on there it seemed a good place to communicate and going there everyday just sucks the life out of me any place else on the computer.

My Iphone is a fantastic tool but it is also unsocial and a time sucker, no one needs my email reply's instantly, I dont NEED to check it every 3 minutes for new messages but I do. Things are going to be changing and not in a new years resolution , just because it is time to go back to my familiar things.

So what has happened in the past 6 months since I stopped blogging,

Well.....Nathaniel has now turned 6 lost 3 teeth and is growing up very tall.

We bought a house a lovely 4 bedroom 2 bathroom which is wonderful and we have loved settling in although the initial road was bumpy and we were all sick.

Simon performed in another musical - this one called "Urinetown" and it was very well received.

Me - well I play on the computer, work very little as work has been quiet and gain weight due to being lazy! I also volunteer a lot at school.

So I look forward to seeing you join me on the journey of the next year with less facebooking and more outdoor and exciting things to explore and learn!!

Yesterday we all went on a family day out to "Point Reyes" we went on the "Earthquake" trail it was a lot of fun and we finished up buying some meat from Marin Sun farms and lunch at Cafe Reyes.

Family wise both Sylvia and Peter have been hospitalised over the past 3 months at various times, both recovering well although dad did require further surgery on his remaining leg.

The snowfall has been a problem this year in the UK, for us we have to drive to tahoe to experience that - which reminds me I must buys so

me goggles for nathaniel, I cant find his pair from last year!

Well it is 8am and I know some of you have already started to celebrate the new year, so Happy New year to you all and I hope 2010 is kind to you - didnt it come round fast!!

big news

2009-07-25T21:33:00.000-07:00

nathaniel may soon be with out a tooth, he is very excited I was kind of hoping picture day would come before the teeth fall out but who know.

We owe this wiggly tooth to a friend who hit his face with a hard ball thus loosening the tooth, after much blood and pain, it is settling down and now the excitement of the tooth fairy is upon us, after a frantic text to Simon about bringing some money home, the tooth however, didnt fall out, YET

So we wait anxiously for that first tooth to fallout and nathaniel will then take his first step towards adult hood and his second and last set of teeth!

How exciting for him!!

Making changes

2009-07-09T09:15:00.000-07:00

I talk about this a lot and for some reason the changes dont happen but I do not want to go on like this. After another trip to the uk and several more pounds gained, I see myself on that treadmill heading in the wrong direction on the scales,

For now the biggest changes I am going to make is increase my fruit and vegetable intake, and from that I will move forward with my exercise once I have my intake controlled - I must also make this clear I am by no way stuffing myself full of crap, my body is obviously one that is just sensitive to some of my choices for my meals.

I dont know if I will do the half marathon, I do think i can do it but want to not have too many stresses so for now I will get out, train a bit and eat plenty fruit and vegetables and cut my portion sizes down!!

Here goes!

Brave or just plain stupid

2009-05-22T20:56:00.000-07:00

Well to be honest probably a bit of both, so I signed up for another 1/2 marathon and I will be documenting my trials and tribulations on a separate blog, open to read but will still keep this one for non running stuff

I have linked it in the side margin, but incase you cant see it

check out http://runsfmagain.blogspot.com

I will try to document on that how my training is going, the support I am getting and how i am doing!

So far just completed day 2 and I am doing great, too soon to be a disaster!!

thanks for following (if you click follow it will email you when i update it)

still nothing

2009-05-21T13:56:00.001-07:00

So our refurbishment continues and I have not felt well since they started, constant headaches and sore throats, it must be all from the works. It is very draining day in and day out listening to the hammering, banging, soldering and all the other types of noises, I tried to keep Nathaniel out side but that ended up just making him exhausted and really was no good, so instead we stay home at least some of the time and are tortured while we try to do laundry, cooking or just some down time etc etc

This I must admit has been the longest and hardest month of my life.

Even nathaniel sigh's as they turn up on the weekends. Unable to open our windows the house smells and is stuffy and I just wish I could escape to a hotel for a week to "feel better"

Every day I wait for our notice to leave coming through the door, but as of today, I have heard nothing yet, I search through craigslists for rentals and usually they end up being a dead end.

I can do nothing but accept this miserable situation and get my mind and body dragged down and down. The summer is approaching and I feel like a prisoner in my own home watched and looked at constantly by workmen, knowing my coming and goings, nathaniel misses going out to play and I miss the fresh air - such a basic thing.

Lets pray for 6.30 when they finally pack up and leave, for about 1 hour I can open the blinds see sunshine and open the windows, just till dark and listen to - mostly peace

Ouch

2009-05-08T20:29:00.000-07:00

well, we are now 19 days into the refurbishment of my apartment and all I can say is that it is affecting nathaniel and I considerably,

Initially, I tried to keep out the house while the work is on but that is impossible it is continuous from 7.45 till 6.30pm, and nathaniel and I are exhausted from trying to fit in all the play dates, not only that but the house is covered in dust often getting in my eyes, the house smells and I am beginning to feel very unwell, I just want to book into a hotel till it is done, headaches, nausea, sore throat and painful eyes are some of the symptoms I am exhibiting and I can say through most of this I have been off the alcohol - all but the day i came back to the windows out and dust literally everywhere, I did pour myself 2 glasses.

Meanwhile I am sick of looking for rentals and I am sick of being patient and not angry, i am very angry so angry i could cry but then that would stop me cleaning up this pit that is no longer a place i want to call home, I opened the windows today to try and get some air circulating but it caused more dust into the place and was a total waste of time, I really just want to cut my headoff, then the misery would stop - this is not healthy

so far so good

2009-04-28T14:36:00.000-07:00

I am pleased to say I have reeled in my drinking and have now stopped drinking at home completely although I was driven to some last night after I came home to find no windows in our house and dust everywhere.

That is a rare occasion for me now, I am leaving my social drinking to when I am out!

I have noticed a huge difference in my attitude!

After a huge hot spell I am glad to say it has cooled off a little bit and I am just trying to make it though each day without having too much of a crazy schedule for Nathaniel and i

how much is too much

2009-04-18T20:40:00.002-07:00

I have been thinking about this question for a while and always refer it to wine, how much is too much.

I have been aware that my daily drinking of wine is a focus of my evening and it has had me very concerned. It wasnt the drinking so much but indeed the "when did it start being every night?" question was in my head.

Friends around me reassured me with "oh one is Ok" but digging deeper they were kind of like me - saying they were having one but often many nights they maybe had 2 or even 3, with the result of 3 glasses of wine leaving them moody, agressive and pretty much hung over the next day - i have these issues if i have 3 glasses of wine.

Since I couldn't remember when I started my "daily" drinking, I have decided to stop and so far 6 days and still counting I have not had a drop - not even sniffed at the open wine bottle that is in the fridge - i am pretty proud of myself and I have been in different situations, a group night out, alone at home and a night in with Simon so I have been tested and no-one has asked me to do this, I want to!

I feel calmer and more fun, I definately have more energy and am sleeping better, today I was going to have a glass of wine as a reward for "being good" then i realised how silly that actually sounded - why reward myself for something I didnt actually need.

So proudly I have cut back and dont really miss it and ..........well..... it will do no harm!

Update

2009-04-16T21:49:00.000-07:00

So it has been ages that I wrote in my blog and ages since I felt inspired to write in my blog, so what has been happening??

Well I turned another year older and celebrated in fine style with my family and friends, as usual, i was spoilt rotten with nice gifts and the money I received I spent at lululemon my new favourite sports shop - they do just fabulous fitness wear and since that is something I do wear practically every day it is nice to have comfortable stuff.

We continued to meet with our friends and get used to Nathaniel's baseball practices and the sun has definitely been shining.

We were fortunate enough recently to go to a Rodeo and I have taken advantage of the good weather and done several hikes!!

It is really hard to believe we are now in the middle of April speeding along to May!!

Life is definitely doing OK for us and we do count our blessings everyday!!

so......

2009-03-05T22:09:00.001-08:00

I think my ZEST for life lasted about 2 minutes then due to over work, I ended up sick and useless but after I have slept for 3 days nearly - except for school pick ups and runs to Karate, sports clinic and baseball, i was able to rest, I now feel better and hopefully I can post more positive news in the next week or so.

You will hear of me turning 38 - can you believe it - I cant and my dad turning 70.

Woo hoo, I LOVE birthdays!!

zest for life!

2009-02-20T09:37:00.000-08:00

So this morning I got up extra early so I could fit in an exersise class before Simon left for work, up at 5.30 ready to work my core about till 7, I was very proud of myself that I did this as I have been trying to do it for weeks and ended up always just turning the alarm off and having an extra hour in bed!

I have stocked up on everything healthy from the supermarket (racing around the store while Nathaniel had his karate lesson!)

I am off to try Chi running tomorrow - no idea what that is about but it is a free session with the athletics store so i thought I would give it a whirl! 2 hrs running - that will be a challange!!

Some small baby steps I am going to take, instead of feeling I am not getting "gym" or running exercise get it other ways such as - take out Nathaniel's bike and instead of watching him run with him he gets up a fair pace!!

Also i have been meaning to get running during the 50 minutes I sit at Karate - so skip the cup of tea and get moving

Today we have a prettyquitte day which is good and then onto a busy weekend with T-ball lessons starting (baseball) so we need to uy trousers, shoes and a baseball glove!!, busy shopping for us!!

and maybe I will sign up for the 10k in april!!

Definitely feeling better

Legoland

2009-02-19T19:24:00.000-08:00

So Nathaniel and I boarded a plane and hit San Diego, what an amazing trip it was, we landed hired a car and drove to Seaworld, with the sun baking hot we enjoyed the animals and the water rides before heading back to the car where i discovered that the car had not been locked, no central locking on this car!!

Nothing taken though thankfully and we drove to Motel 6 for the night, we had a Valentines dinner at TGI fridays and Nathaniel fell asleep at the table, so I took my valentine back to the motel, early the next day we drove up to Carlsbad and went straight to legoland, it was my first time since I went to windsor when I turned 30 and there were no kids around, it was a fun place, very cute to see all the figures and again lots of rides and fun things to do, we were luckily enough to get in free for all 3 days thanks to a friend giving us free tickets!

Nathaniel has been very "into" Lego Starwars and Indian Jones so we definitely had some fun moments!

The good weather did disappear for 2 hrs but I expected that so had kept all the indoor shows and stuff for the "rainy day"

Nathaniel felt the hotel was "very fancy" and especially liked room service - not really as lavish as it seems as it allowed us to avoid the queues and eat early to keep his bedtime at 7pm

We eventually packed our bags and headed home and nathaniel was very disappointed he couldn't show "daddy" any of the stuff so i know we will visit again soon - the sea world tickets last all year anyhoo!!

A great rest was had by us both but we were happy to return back home!

Finding Balance

2009-02-01T19:25:00.000-08:00

so, I really feel like I have lost the balance in my life, with me working so much to try and learn, i feel like it has flipped and all I do is work.

I feel like I cant concentrating, i am eating rubbish as I am so tired, I really feel like my life is just moving on day by day and i am not able to witness any of it.

never even getting to the gym as I have to either work or be ferrying my son to play dates and lesson's. Previously I have discovered that 2 days worked well in our family but me working 3 pushes us over the edge, however i thought with the flexibility of this job it would help enable me to do more,

but I guess maybe not, lets see how the next month goes

anyone have any answers??

ON a lazy saturday afternoon!

2009-01-24T15:10:00.000-08:00

Here I sit pondering life,

Having played my usual tetris on face book and made as many comments as I seem I went to check out craigslist - looking for a house to rent,

Not much around, I saw a nice one today but it is just a little "too open" a few doors would be nice - but it was a great garden and hot tub, the thought of living in the apartment for any more of a time makes me just want to grab anything cause no matter hat you have you make it work, but we cant really do that so on wards we go looking at some more - when they become available.

Simon is currently napping before we head out to Outback steakhouse for dinner, we should be going to chili's but since it is it's last weekend I fear most of the stuff would be out of stock,

Chili's we will miss you!!

I guess the cheesecake factory is a good replacement!

being a weight watcher

2009-01-22T20:17:00.000-08:00

So since January 2004, I have been a weight watcher and it has been a good thing, I lost a ton of weight and gave me some renewed confidence.

However being 10 - 15lb heavier the past year has made me scared, frantic about gaining all my weight back again, only someone who has lost weight kind of understands this dilemma,

here I am a normal BMI and within my weight range, wanting to get back to my "perfect" weight - and I will but I think my weight watching needs to be a little more secret, Nathaniel is talking a lot about diets and about "being fat" and he is so skinny I don't want him to keep going like that, so I will be good, I will chart, but i think I will stop going to the meetings and making a fuss about my size, we are who we are and I only wish I could see that it is OK to be the size I am, maybe someday, I don't want to diet forever!!

Punishments

2009-01-21T09:41:00.000-08:00

So,

Nathaniel threw a fit in front of daddy at the weekend, (I am familiar with these they happen mainly every evening, and I throw him to bed!

However this one was because he didnt want to stop playing the wii, so infact he landed with a 1 week ban for the wii - we can still play it though!

Day one and 2 were fine but I did begin to wonder why we had imposed a ban like this on a bank holiday weekend. What would we fill the time with.

We ended up doing some really fun stuff, the discovery museum, the parks, riding bikes, more parks, talking and reading, making books etc etc. he is actually quite proud of his ban now!

Which leads me to wonder...how good is the wii and why do we let him play it at all, well it is a family game we can play together, it also allows me time free from him to prepare dinner, tidy up, take a shower, it helps him read, fight battles and learn about sports and taking turns.

So I guess the tantrum was just a moment of lost control, 5 year olds will have them - so do grown ups, but what we can learn is the lesson he learned yesterday in Karate - KEEP THE CONTROL WITH YOU!

Sensai was saying that as soon as you loose control it gets passed to another person to control you and that is now fun, we talked after and he decided he would take sensai's advice if he could and try to do the 3 breaths to calm him down so he can control his temper.

Now with a weekend of me working and predicted rain - lets see how his temper is controlled

The Inauguration of Barrack Obama

2009-01-20T12:25:00.001-08:00

So, I was going to write about something else but I will leave my thoughts on punishment for another day!

So....today the USA welcomed a new president to the white house! Much pomp and circumstance to lure citizens that this is the dawning of a new era, the beginning of many wonders and lets not forget the fancy parade!

I am generally a pessimist with regards to politics - there is something funny about him I am not trusting - but then anyone who knows me knows that is pretty much how I feel about politics in general and no other "president" would ever really have me on their side - unless Nathaniel runs a few years down the line. I do not know why I cannot celebrate but there you go, I want to wait and see how he does, I think my problem is that the american people voted in President bush - maybe by cheating the first time but he did rightfully get elected a second term, many people I talk to say oh he isn't our president but if a country should do anything it is come together and welcome the president who was voted in be a democracy! Don't ask people to vote if you don't want to hear the answer.

Now I could go into dictators and how they could make a country work, but I wont....but just know this, every leader has their own personal way to lead and we must trust them to lead.

Now onto Obama, the colour of his skin seems to be a big issue in this election but surely if we are treating everyone as one, that shouldn't be an issue that we have a mixed race president in the united states, cause he isn't black but mixed race and as my father pointed out, Americans are usual the first ones to be politically correct.

He seems to have a nice family and they seem happy (unless you read the "enquirer" while waiting to pay for groceries in safeway yesterday!!), so I wish him much success in his new job, he has a lot to achieve and unfortunately I believe the American people want miracles but that will take time.....we are in a deep recession and it will get much worse before it becomes better so Mr Barrack Obama (like every other politician/president) will find himself with some tough choices to make and they will not make everyone happy - not even you!!

What we all want in our lives is the same as our parents and grandparents is for a strong family foundation and a country to be proud of.

Lets support the new president in all he does and aims to achieve....

Welcome President Obama to the White house!

New Gym, new excitement

2009-01-19T17:34:00.000-08:00

so what is making me smile these days!

Well, 2 things I think!

Sunshine - gosh the weather has been amazing we have been hitting the park so nathaniel is happier as I sit there with a book and read while he climbs and gets fresh air, it seems like a long time since he got out and about but it hasn't really!!

I joined a new gym - the JCC (jewish community center), I have not changed religions but am really looking forward to being a part of something again, I spend most of my days feeling very lost! Unable to keep contact with my friends since I took my new job has really isolated me and made me really sad, as well as being sick most of december, but I don't want to be sad, I want to see my friends and catch up on their news and have play-dates so from February, I have done some adjusting to allow me to work a 24 hr week but also have continuity so nathaniel can have play-dates, get to Karate and I can still have the dinner ready for when Simon gets home and get all the chores done!! Rachelle, has told me so often to get a cleaner she has given up on me, but she also knows that I find it hard to explain the need for a cleaner - I feel everyone in the house can do it, unfortunately they don't!

Anyway, onto the gym and gosh that first spin class really hurt my bottom but I am positive and moving forward, Zumba was easier and fun despite my distinct lack of latin rhythm, and the equipment is great so over the next week I plan to try out all the classes I can in between working!!

So hopefully I will get better at my work, allow me to catch up with everyone a little easier and generally feel less overwhelmed!!

Watch this space!!

New Year - new challenges!

2009-01-07T17:25:00.000-08:00

So, the new year has come and gone, and are we still sticking with our resolutions!

Well so far I am, less food and drink more in the fitness department!

I am still trying to figure everything out in the job situation, it is pretty hard but as soon as my orientation is over with I will hopefully begin to feel more settled but for now it seems just a confusing maze!

Nathaniel is finding the return to school hard with the "getting out of bed part" being the hardest!! He is in the top group for reading which means in addition to the home work he also gets extra reading - thats doesn't quite make sense to me!

So not sure how our year will pan out we have a couple of ideas but have no time to sit down and work everything out!

We went skiing a few weeks ago and Nathaniel loved it and hopefully we will go again this weekend.

Simon is busy with all his theater stuff - not so busy with work!

California has been cool this month but apparently it is meant to be back up in the 70's this weekend - we certainly cant complain!

So, onward and upward!

Happy new Year!

28th December.....

2008-12-28T07:48:00.000-08:00

So no blogs for a while mainly as we have all had our heads down toilets with a tummy bug which has gone on and on!

However, I think we are all making a recovery and despite some measly helpings at Christmas Dinner, we are now beginning to feel better.

We even ventured out to some friends house last night and while we were there we got talking about things we dont like so here are some of my lists!

Things I dont like Things my body Rejects

Cauliflower cheese Ice cream

toad in the hole cheese

Yorkshire pudding chocolate

Macaroni Cheese Crisps

Sushi foods cooked in certain oils

Overcooked vegetables

large quantities of fish

I will have a think and continue this list!!

where in the world.......................

2008-12-15T19:33:00.000-08:00

has the time gone too!!

Part of it is me just trying to settle as quickly as possible into a new job, desperate to look competent!!

Another thing is that i just am not doing very much "blog-worthy", I always need a "reason" to write so I know I am not boring the readers.

I love Christmas, I love the food, the presents, the lights, the snow, etc etc so it is quite hard for me living with a person who doesn't really "bother" much about it, it gets hard to keep motivated!!

I also think this is a time of year you should spend with your family but distance for us makes that not possible! It doesn't stop you wishing differently though.

Already a barrel load of presents under the tree and i am studying every cook book I can find to make this a perfect Christmas. Nathaniel is very excited about it all and hasn't asked too many questions, this time last year he was a Shepherd in his school Nativity, how proud we were of him in his school production!!

Well time for bed and to think of some better blogs - I always think of really witty things when I am asleep!

Night everyone

New job, new challanges!

2008-11-19T14:11:00.000-08:00

So far the new job seems to be going well, I have been doing it a week now and have met with my preceptor a few times and done some visits and apparently I maybe able to do a solo one on friday or monday.

The hours also seem great, some days are full days and others are just 5 or 6 allowing me to sit fit in Karate lessons and playdates as well as home work!!

Currently I am still doing Marin general too, but not sure how long that will last, it they call me off much more then I have to swap cause a call off is an 8 hour day which I am not earning - which if quite frankly a bit pointless, unless I need a rest or some time to catch up on things.

I am adjusting well despite not having my car to potter around in it is currently being fixed!

I must say it is quite nice to have an "office job" with a desk and phone and post-it's pads and pens, white relaxing unless all my phones go at the same time.

It is not all smelly houses and meeting in parking lots!!

So far .....so good

teeth

2008-11-18T17:45:00.000-08:00

What do you think about my teeth, the squint-ness of them has bothered me for a long time and i decided I should see someone about getting them straightened, which I did. Technology has moved on somewhat since I was young and they have invisible braces now so you dont have to look like a metal mickey/brace face!!

However, "invisaline" will not work on my teeth and the orthodontist doesn't recommend the ceramic pale version of the metal wires as they are awkward and stain. So it is metal braces, but that is not the only part, to move my bite into place they need to move my jaw and I have 3 options

a - Have teeth removed

b - have jaw surgery

c - get a herbst brace

So as you can imagine, I am still thinking, and may keep on thinking for some time to come,

I am actually scared shitless about the brace not really as concerned about the metal wires as I know they do hurt,

so metal braces for 2 years

a herbst appliance for 9 months

and a cost of $4500

I will continue to "think"

what do you think?? Would you do it!

a busy time

2008-11-11T19:22:00.000-08:00

wow, what a busy time just now both good and bad, firstly, I have to mention Johnny who is struggling with his health at the moment but the doctors feel he is on the right treatment and that his pneumonia will soon be away, it must be hard for him, being alone, and vulnerable and not used to hospitals but he has some good friends checking on him as well as his mum!!

Get well soon Johnny!!

I also started my new job as a district nurse, full of nerves and wonder of how it will be but hopefully it will be great, I worked yesterday and then again thursday and friday! I will also still be working at Marin General so i hope I am not taking on too much - only time will tell, my bank account could definitely do with a boost!!

Happy Halloween

2008-10-31T11:45:00.000-07:00

This time of year is full of excitement and wonderment, especially as the children discover the world of "pumpkin Patches" and "halloween"

Nathaniel has had a lot of fun going trick or treating and dressing up as well as carving and icking his own special pumpkin on a field trip with his school.

Today was lovely to see all the parents turn up to see the kids in their mix with their friends and watch them show off their costume.

Today was also the first time it has rained since March - although we desperately need rain couldnt it have waited until tomorrow?????

Happy halloween

no change here !!!

2008-10-13T10:40:00.000-07:00

SO by now you are very well familiar with my moans and groans about my weight and lack of fitness,

I find this totally frustrating but dont seem to be doing anything about it, my usual complaints are I am too tired, or feeling sick.

Yes we have had a few colds around the place but the rate I am going I need tp give myself a kick.

2 things I am going to try is 1 - write a motivational message to myself each day!

2 - take on a personal trainer once a week

I am hoping the trainer will help me find that motivation again, as we approach the winter months that will be important as we take comfort in stews and soups for dinner salads take second place!

SoI will keep you updated on my progress and I am going to try really hard as it is only me that can do this no one else and so what if I need a little help to get to where I need to be!!

I have too many winter clothes that i want to fit into so lets hope in 1 month I can report some good changes!!

a new challenge!

2008-10-08T20:25:00.000-07:00

An interesting thing happened to me on Saturday, and no it wasn't the patient dying, but one of my colleagues asked if I could knit. Automatically, I said yes - you remember my tea cosy mum, and John you still have the masterpieces that are the Dr Who scarfs.

So eventually she went to her car and got her needles and wool - it was actually a very busy day so obviously we were doing this on our break!! I was actually getting a bit nervous, I havent knitted anything in probably over 25 years, maybe I should have said I didnt know how to do it.......

So she produced her needles - whats that i asked! Oh needles have changed she said it was 2 pieces of wood and a plastic thread tying them together.

I showed her how to cast on (once I found the starter bit of wool) and showed her the 2 basic stitches and off she went.

I was quite proud of myself, being able to do that and even thought to myself I should go take it up again and knit something......................

so............watch this space!!

Homework

2008-10-01T18:38:00.000-07:00

Wow - can you believe it my just turned 5 year old has started homework, and he is very excited about it and I am stressed about it, trying to fit it into the day with an already packed schedule of school, playdates and karate.

Somethings have to give so new rules have been enforced, Wii only at weekends, no playdates until 2.30 once homework has been completed!

It is making me very disciplined and finding the day is flying past but the work so far has been good and he is really coming on with his writing.

I was a little sad tonight though to see on his white board he had written, i am very sad mummy, he said he didn't think people liked him - the ones he doesn't know yet!! I told him not to worry about the ones he hasn't met and that everyone loves him and thinks he is a fun boy to play with!

He has recovered from being ill but has been mega sleepy which gives me enough time to settle in front of the TV and have a drink of wine!!

Cheers

well we made it

2008-09-23T13:07:00.000-07:00

and since 10pm last night we have a 5 year old in the house.

Nathaniel had a lovely birthday yesterday playing with his new toys, being at school and the birthday dinner I made (it wasn't Celia's) but I made yummy birthday cupcakes too!!

We love you Nathaniel, you are such a bright spark and you say the most amazing things, but yet you still have the need for cuddles and a helping hand.

Every day daddy and I are amazed at everything you can do and how quickly you pick it all up, swimming, biking, scooting, reading, sums (even I haven't got that one down).

You have such determination and get so mad if things don't go your way immediately but hey...thats a daddy trait!!

You have taught us to be less selfish (mostly we kind of still like to sleep till 7am)!!

Happy birthday and hopefully the road to 6 will be a fun journey for you, just do

nt get bigger than me YET!!

Today is PARTY DAY!!!

2008-09-20T07:32:00.001-07:00

So today is Nathaniel's birthday party, his birthday is in 2 days, on the 22nd September and we cant help but take our minds back to a year ago today. During the festivities of the party we will certainly be thinking about dad.

Today last year he underwent his first of 4 surgeries and that was his below knee amputation. No one can ever understand how that must feel like to a person, dad was obviously devastated but had been (briefly) extremely ill prior to this day and appeared to "accept the surgery with good positive thoughts"

Today we will celebrate life, Nathaniel turning 5, and dad still being around to help celebrate it, he has had another tough year but we are so grateful he is here

Due date!

2008-09-17T17:09:00.000-07:00

So today 5 years ago was Nathaniel's due date, as I am not celebrating his birthday you understand he didn't arrive today 5 years ago. The pictures are taken from that day!!

So lets recap on that day!!

I cant remember much but I met Emily, (baby Holly) along with Jacky and her pal David for a bite at D Angelo's in Mill Valley, I ordered Pizza - I always did at an italian restaurant, but felt pretty sick and took most of it home. I have never gone back to the restaurant.

This was probably the hardest day of my pregnancy, all my "pregn

ant friends in the US" had gone early so I waited not sure when it would all take off, I maybe expected fire works but I didnt get them.

Fast forward 5 years, I am busy preparing for Nathaniel's birthday party and i swear I am making it smaller every year but here I am having 35 kids and parents to the party!!

I hope he enjoys it and as he started Kindergarten this year he has a few new friends at the party this year!!

Happy due date!! When were your's. I think only Simon came on his due date

I pledge Allegiance to the United States of America

2008-09-12T11:19:00.000-07:00

Today I had the pleasure of joining the other parents as we sat in on the Friday assembly at school.

All stand as the flag enters the room and the kids sang a little song

they then made the pledge - so if you dont know it here it is: -

The Pledge of Allegiance

I Pledge Allegiance to the flag of the United States of America and to the Republic for which it stands,
one Nation under God,
indivisible, with liberty and justice for all.

Obviously we have no problem with him participating (well maybe a little sadness) but he is american and we are living in America, so thats understandable, I am not ready to stand there with my hand on my heart or left shoulder where ever they place it - it isnt necessary, but we should be able to encourage Nathaniel to learn the words and understand why he is doing it, I am not sure if teachers have discussed this - again i assume not! Your heritage is something to be proud of and lets face it, most of the American population stemmed back from Irish or scottish decent - a few will claim english heritage but it isnt as popular as being of celtic origin. They seem a little young to do this stuff, but oh well, the assembly was far to long and the noisy kids were the 4 and 5th graders!!

It was a nice event to see and I got to wave to Nathaniel - once he had stopped clowning around!!

September 11th 2001

2008-09-11T07:40:00.000-07:00

What does this date mean to you??

I am sure you feel devastated, sad and very sorry for the families who's lives are devasted by this terrible event.

I feel all of the above but let me take you back to that day (in my mind)!!

September 11th 2001 Simon and I had been living in the US for 6 months and we had said goodbye to our friends Gilli and Steve on the 9th they had been visiting us.

I awoke with the alarm clock (about 7am) and heard the radio announcers chatting, Sarah and Vinnie were a popular Alice radio presenter, I heard part of what they were saying and I initially thought they were joking about the planes and then something seemed more real,

I ran to turn on the computer to see if there was anything on the internet, (forgetting that I could just turn on the TV) I was doing this as I am terrible for gossip and news!! As I turned on the TV one of the towers fell down while they claimed was "live" I watched the same piece of filming for about the next 12 hours until I could go back to bed. Over and over it went the same stuff, I watched on and off after realising it was all the same stuff, but I could go no- where, the library's, shops and even the Golden Gate bridge were all shut.

I found this really hard to take in - why, mainly I felt because all this happened New York time and in California by the time I got up, it was over and done with and just "old news", how can you live in a country and not know what is going on till too late - the time difference across the US is so great that can happen.

So the next few days with the Americans hell bent on revenge (you can tell they are new to this) I just didnt know what to think. You see, terrorism to me is something that I have grown up with, going on holiday and getting the car searched for bombs, bombs going off in town centers the saturday before Mothers day killing fathers and children, buildings and stations being evacuated for "bombs", some blowing up big stations at commuter times! Infact the IRA bombed pretty much anything and everything, so to me this didnt have the affect that it seemed to have on everyone else.

People who do these things are very rarely able to be stopped and the people who suffer are basically the innocent victims of our politics.

So certainly remember September 11th it was a terrible tragedy, but also spare a thought for those who also were a victim of other terrorism acts, and be aware!!

What do you stare at

2008-09-02T10:35:00.000-07:00

What do you think about when you are in a dance class or exercise class??

My mind often wanders to the teacher, how tall/short they are and how they seem to be conveying the information too you and I must admit, my eyes are always drawn to their belly, wondering, how they can be that fat and teach a class, does that mean their class is no good??

I also hate the big mirrors in front of you that force you to look at yourself (never a pretty sight!)

That just gives me even more reason not to concentrate, can you see all the people behind you too!

Oh well, getting distracted never was helpful for me and my whole life is one constant distraction, always thinking about what to do next.

I am however generally enjoying the class and really hope it does help me get in shape even if it is just a little

End of the first week

2008-08-29T14:37:00.000-07:00

Wow the first week went with out any hitches, Natey loves school and even took to the stage in Assembly to introduce the other kids to their class mascot.

I didn't attend the Assembly as I didn't know you could go - I guess i wasn't listening carefully enough but another parent filled me in. However I was a little concerned that she mentioned everyone was laughing about how he speaks, I kind of have mixed feelings about this as this can move to bullying and teasing, he doesn't realize sometimes why people like or think his accent is funny and to stand on stage and people laugh at you can be daunting, in the early stages of school, you mix with new people and try and fit in and even at this young age impressions are made. We are proud of him no matter what he sounds like.

Anyway enough about that and onto the weather, it has been a scorcher here this week and I really try not to "go on and on" about the weather as I know some people are not so lucky to live in beautiful California, this whole week we have been over 100 oF every day, (you know it will be hot when it is 75 at 6am when I leave for work. This results in a lot of pool time and MANY changes of clothes. I went for a run today with Margaret, but with the heat and my knees being a bit sore it was more like a walk, running is definately better at about 65 oF

Tonight Simon and i are headed out on a "date night" with Lori and Andy Whittock, we are going to T-REX,

I will probably struggle to find something weight watcher friendly but.....never mind, I am enjoying having the access to my weight watchers on my iphone as they now have a weight watchers mobile program, now I have no excuse to forget the Burgers and chips I eat!!

OK I have sat here long enough filling you in on how hot I am

Have a wonderful WEEKEND, we have a 3 day weekend with Labor Day on Monday and start off Saturday with 2 afternoon Parties!!

Love to you all and a big welcome to SEPTEMBER - the month Nathaniel turns 5

First day of School

2008-08-25T08:34:00.000-07:00

So, today is the day we have been waiting for all summer when Nathaniel John Eves hits the school trail.

He has been so excited but as I suspected he did not take kindly to me waking him up at 7am - what can I say he takes after his dad (although today daddy was up). So Mr Grumpy got up sulked then went back to bed, after about 20 minutes he got up and had breakfast and got dressed,

He was now excited, grabbing his backpack we went to the car, the journey was not problematic at all and we got to school at 7.55 so maybe we can leave 5 mins later tomorrow,

This gave him a chance to pick the best peg, his new friend Vivian was also there with her mum and dad.

Having waited a long time and the doors hadnt opened he headed to the Monkey Bars for a quick play. The headmistress (principle) was going around waving and chatting with parents, the school was full of excited chatter and the loveliest thing was that there was many mums and dads there to say goodbye to their child on the first day of school, not just for kindergarten, it is nice it is still a special family event.

We found his cubbie and off he went, to enjoy his day (hopefully), I will pick him up at 1.30

Super mario Thursday

2008-08-21T22:42:00.000-07:00

Summer is drawing to a close and though there has been no let up in the weather (that is not a surprise) school will start on monday . For Nathaniel it will be his first year of "official" education starting Kindergarten and the school year looks kind of intimidating with him only getting 4 weeks off between now and June 11th when he breaks up for summer, Nathaniel is so excited he just cant wait his new back pack arrived and he was able to put his special pencils and other goodies inside ready for his first day on monday.

The pace here has remained a little hectic but we are definitely having gaps for us to feel more "rested and happy", we have even managed to catch up on some TV in an evening and not got totally addicted to the Olympics!!

So for now, good night

Being "hot hot hot"

2008-08-13T21:59:00.000-07:00

This has been a most memorable day, not only have I (for the first time in ages) felt "awake", today was the day Nathaniel aged 4 5/6th swam a length of the pool 12 times totally unassisted and in fact I was at the other end of the pool cheering him on (as were the rest of the pool) of course in his favourite words "I have never seen a 4 5/6th boy swim as good as that" he now definitely has his eye on the prize (well several ) he thinks he can do the fast swimming, diving, and ladies Gymnastics - YES he has been enjoying the Olympics with me, he likes to snuggle on the sofa next to me and tell me that he could have done what they did....but better - oh the optimism is funny!!

So today was a sweltering day, another of the many hot days when it reaches over 40 oC (104 oF), so we spent the morning in the pool with our friends Melissa, Jack and Ryan but after Pizza karate was calling so headed over there for his class. On our return we decided it was too hot for anything so hit the pool once again, and the joy in his face as he achieved all his new goals - pure joy and the first thing he wanted to do when he got out the water (after I dragged him out) was to call "daddy", but the ansaphone was on so he left a message and daddy soon called back.

and now I am sitting trying to keep cool I have changed my jammies 3 times trying to find something cool and I eagerly await 4am when the wind picks up and the air becomes fresh and cool - at least till about 8am when it gets roasting again,

so for now, maybe an ice lolly is in order..................night night

oh and my leg still hurts today but I have managed some decent exercises mainly in the pool and the wii fit!!

Sunny Tuesday

2008-08-12T18:41:00.000-07:00

I got the day off today which has been a blessing my leg has been hurting more than normal since yesterday and all today to the point I needed to have some pain killers,

Nathaniel and I had a lovely day headed to The Ranch to see Lollypop with Katrina and Bonnie which was a lot of fun and we even had a picnic lunch, after that we headed to the pool, I have been swimming so much this week it has been fun and it is so exciting to see Nathaniel's progression with his swimming, when we left the UK in February, I was sure he would be swimming by the end of summer, but with taking so long away I began to think maybe not but this week he has just been going for it to the point that he is jumping really far and swimming to the sides and swimming in widths really well,

He only has a week and a half before school starts so we are really making the most of our time, although we will still have most of the afternoon's.

It was really hot today so it is so nice to just spend 2 hrs or more in the pool,

However it is nearing his bedtime so I should go get his story read!!

What has your Tuesday been like,

I am off to watch the olympics with a nice glass of wine (I had given up for a week but really fancy a nice cool glass of wine to relax!!)

CHEERS:)

Work, work, Work

2008-08-11T21:07:00.000-07:00

Thats all I seem to have done since I returned from the UK, although i haven't really, and this 5 day stretch is tiring too, today I decided I needed knew nursing shoes as my feet hurt so much and my leg is really sore where I broke it, I guess it just is also in connection with me working more,

Tomorrow is my last day till saturday - yippee.

Nathaniel wants to swim every day (which is good cause it is just so hot over here another heat-wave - over 100's again) he is getting so confident which is fantastic though we still take good care to make sure no drowning occurs.

The olympics have started - what is your favourite event?? I think China and the US think they are the only ones competing but they just have the most available money to put time and effort into sport where as other countries the Athletes usually have full time jobs and practice in their spare time!! I also think the gymnasts seem to have got really chubby especially their legs, I am sure they use to be like scrawny little girls, there was even a 33 year old woman in there from the german team!!!! The synchronized diving is just plain creepy!!

Oh well,

Better go bed, morning will be here before I know it!! Happy Tuesday!

Camping,

2008-08-06T16:33:00.000-07:00

Camping was a fun time for the 3 of us. I joined Simon and Nathaniel for the last few days of their trip.

Simon had never done camping before so I wasn't sure what I would find as I arrived that sunday evening, but what I found was our friends enjoying a campfire and awaiting dinner (we were cooking it)

The next 48 hours was full of fun adventure and total relaxation, we had forgotten whet it was like not to check emails every five minutes, but to just talk, relax and enjoy our friends company. There certainly was a lot of talk making it an annual event and our family would certainly sign up. We would also be a bit more prepared next time around.

Swimming, toasting marshmallows and hikes as well as certainly too many bottles of wine, nathaniel just loved being out doors and keeping the fire going!!

The last day we enjoyed a cheeseburger from the local cafe and boy it tasted nice, slowly integrating us back into civilisation,

Thank you to all our friends who had a fun time with us!!

I did it....

2008-08-03T10:25:00.001-07:00

Not a bad time either around 2.14/2.17

phew, it was very cold,

more later!!

So here goes

August 3rd 2008

I woke up to pee around 1.10 and after that just dozed a little and by 3.00 I was so fed up I just got up the alarm was due to go off at 3.30,

So with a sip of hot tea (didnt want to drink too much) and some melon,

I got dressed up with my number and shoe tag on. Off i went I arrived at the parking lot a little early and then Margaret, her friend Trine and myself heading in, timing was perfect, we parked, pee'd and dropped off our bags, and then waited in line,

Suddenly we were off, Margaret and Trine went speeding off I preferred a slower start, 1, 2, 3, 4 the miles were passing by, a hard climb up to the golden gate bridge beaconed - oh dear, eventually at the top I started the run over the bridge, I knew by the time I finished the bridge portion I would only have 3 miles left and who cant run 3 miles - easy!!

The bridge however was very windy and really cold so my leg muscles in shorts dint like it and it was hard for me to get up any speed, this was disappointing and my split time at 7.5 miles was 1hr 16mins, I carried on though struggling a bit from 10 miles and even nearly got run over by a fire engine who had to come to attend to some injured runners (but not me) Mile 11 seemed to go on for about 10 miles, it was torture, but eventually I hit 12 and then only 1.1 miles to go, then only .5, .4. 3 etc....then, it was all done,

Finished in 2 hrs 14 not my best but not my worst time and more I was trying to get a personal goal achieved - which I did do,

I headed off to collect my medal and any free swag I could get my hands on then headed home,

Hurrah me!!

Getting closer

2008-08-01T21:00:00.000-07:00

2 days till race day and I collected my race bib and timing chip, wow the buzz of the tents was amazing and it was hard not to get swept up with it, even Nathaniel wanted to run, as we walked along the starting route Nathaniel was asking where he would sit to cheer me on, sadly they are camping but as it is such an early race it would be hard for them to be there, i start at 5am.

so some stretching, feet care and rest is what I need for now, working tomorrow and then a brief 2 miles just to stretch out the muscles,

no turning back now,

I am bib number 13951

finally a training run!

2008-07-30T09:31:00.000-07:00

Today, I finally found the energy (and someone to look after Natey) so I could run, this was huge being able to go out at a decent time as evenings I am getting so tired and mornings Simon is off for work,

So, I managed 3 miles, not super fast but definately got there and it has motivated me a little, my leg hurt a bit after, but thats OK, I can try doing more stretches!

Not a bad start maybe I can do 4 miles tomorrow (or even 6)

What Kind of Fool,

2008-07-29T10:26:00.001-07:00

Fed up of being Lazy and sitting around thinking about another half marathon 2 months ago I signed up for the SF 1/2 Marathon, hoping I could get some running in the UK, but didnt manage much and I have been working and suffering from tiredness related to the time change! Now I have a few days till the race, I am definitely panicking about how unprepared and heavy I am. How do you have the energy I am asked, I don't but sometimes you have to dig deep and find your reserves!

There are 2 options for me,

1 - Not to Run

2 - Run

What would you do???

Every part of me is definitely hoping step 1 could be an option but for me I signed up for this race to know I could still manage 13.1 miles after my broken leg, so, OK I wont qualify for the olympics but I know there must be a beer tent at the end (there actually isn't) - surely thats enough motivation.

Realistically I will let myself down if I don't go for it,

I wont break 2 hrs, but if I get to the finish line, maybe it will motivate me for the rest of the summer, I have till Nathaniel's birthday in september to loose the 20 lb necessary to fit my clothes again. So hang on to your Zimmer frames, I am off to the start line.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

2008-07-28T18:20:00.000-07:00

so tired so tired, what I would do for a lie in been scheduled to work the past 3 days and although I got saturday off they called me twice between 5.30 and 6 so that was the end of my rest, I really feel I need some rest to reboot.

I am having trouble even contemplating my race on Sunday,

Some happy news though I had a new baby born to me on Saturday, baby Iphone has already made mummy very happy and is so great fun, Simon went and got one for both of us so now we can chat non stop, I really do love it , Thanks Simon!!!

Off to see Mamma mia tonight, but first I need to find a nice glass of wine!!!!

3am

2008-07-25T03:46:00.000-07:00

what am I doing up, I should be back to bed, I have just told Nathaniel the same, instead I am on the computer and sorting out the kitchen,

my body needs to sort it's self out I am working tomorrow, so will need rest for that!

Nathaniel just informed me that his heart has stopped beating - I think he means he cant feel it just now.

The departed

2008-07-24T18:53:00.001-07:00

I sit here writing this at 7 pm, I have been up for over 24 hrs and I am feeling very sleepy and tired, so here is the summary of our departure.

We arrived at the Hotel ibis and was able to go bowling and to Mcdonalds before we retired for the evening, our hotel was actually very good. The next day started off at 6 am, when i awoke, Nathaniel slept till 7.30 then we got the bus to Heathrow terminal 5, half way round on the bus we realized we had left blankie on the bed (rescue attempts have been success

ful).

Entering terminal 5 I was this time around able to enjoy the whole building and not jus

t the toilets from my arrival with an upset stomach. It looked wonderful and dropping our bags and getting through security promptly gave us time to explore the shops, we first headed for breakfast at Gordon Ramsay's new restaurant "Plane Food" it was relaxing and very lovely and Nathaniel wanted to go back for lunch but given the option of the plane journey he decided that was better.

Our flight was pretty uneventful, apart from very dodgy TV systems and really crap movies that I had never heard of and a faulty air conditioning system that left me melting.

Finally arriving in SFO, I scrambled about to try and find an ATM to get some cash so I could pay for the bus and taxi that took me about 30 ins and another 30 mins waiting on the bus (wasn't our day), eventually landed home just after 5, please let it be bedtime now, Nathaniel's dose on the bus seems to have given him a second wind:(

Now to download 420 pictures from my trip....................and get some shut eye!!

Plodding on.............to the very end

2008-07-20T14:12:00.000-07:00

OK, everyone is going to think I hate the UK, which is totally not true but I do hate travelling for 5 weeks non stop, it is hard, very hard (I know you all think I moan but try it and see what you think), this is the 5Th time I have done it since Nathaniel was born and each time alone, so by the end I am desperate for home, my routine, work, my own bed, see Simon and more importantly a bath.

I haven't had a bath in over 4 weeks (had one since my arrival), that is probably why i am all stung out and tense, I miss relaxing in the bath about 3 times a week, please don't miss interpret that statement, I have been having Showers regularly but for me my bath is my favourite - I definitely don't smell.
The picture above is us on yet another journey, Nathaniel listening to the Ipod as I work out station stops and plan our routes, this journey was taking us into London, it was a fun day going to regents park and catching up with my friend Santosh. Our trip has been good on the mostly getting to catch up with everyone and still missing a few people as despite everything 5 weeks isn't enough. Nathaniel and I are ready for home and with only 3 days left, we can definitely begin to reminisce about our lovely trip. I also apologise for the times I have been abrupt or tired but, it is hard and i get stressed with everything to think about and my main concern has always got to be Nathaniel. I am sure he will definitely remember his trip, even if it is just climbing trees at the Farmers Boy pub, or a playground .

Thank you for having us, but I also have to be totally realistic, with rising costs, school holiday limitations and how all our trips have gone, 5 week trips and touring the country wont be on the agenda for a while, i have to put my thinking cap on to figure something more practical out and for those we stayed with i know you will agree! Nathaniel has been totally amazing, so understanding and polite, it is a lot for a 4 year old to do (cause he understands it all more I have to explain it all) and I know he is looking forward to the moment when he wakes up and doesn't ask the question "who are we seeing today" but just comes through for a morning cuddle on the bed!!

For those who have Skpye - skype us, we would love it, email us for our skype address,

Otherwise........So long from my holiday diary!

sigh...............

2008-07-18T02:27:00.000-07:00

sometimes through this trip I just want to do nothing and sit around for a few hours, today is definately one of them, having been on a tight schedule for the past 4 1/2 months and our only free day is Tuesday i definately, feel like being a slob, not that it is an option today.

Oh well, 5 days left till we arrive at the hotel for our last night

The last leg..............................part 1

2008-07-08T14:20:00.000-07:00

St Albans is the last part of my journey and after 3 train rides from Birmingham plus a taxi, we made it to St Albans and to Sylvia (Simon's mum's house), It was for us time for a big Sigh, we have reached our final destination, the next place we go will be home to San Francisco.

Shortly after we arrived, Gilli and Stan arrived and he is the most adorable little boy we all had fun chatting, eating and drinking, after dinner, Gilli left and Simon and Sylvia had some fun bonding time writing stories and reading a book.

I am desperate for bed, I was lugging all the suitcases....however Nathaniel has other ideas!!

Eventually..... I got to sleep and suddenly find we have 9 days left, so what have we been upto the past week of our Hertordshire leg

Wed - a relaxing time until late afternoon with Sylvia, I explored the changes in St Albans and Nathaniel and grandma explored the fun of just being together, later that afternoon we headed over to The Pratt Household to spend some days and nights with Isabelle, Jessica, Lily and Nick,

Thurs - we had a playdate with Charlie, Jack and Sean which was a crazy few hours of boy play, the afternoon we hung out in the Garden of lily's house having some much needed out door time

Friday - we caught up with best friend Charlie Duffin, and it was fun, we then moved over to Stanmore to cath up with Greg and Rachelle before they headed out to France. Rachelle and I hit a bollywood night for great food and way too many drinks....of course this was regretted on saturday but we survived and Richard came over for dinner.

Sunday saw us relax at stanmore in the garden before I headed over to Hertford to catch up with gilli, Steve and Stan

Monday and Tuesday have been relaxing days I am getting tired and really beginning to get excited about heading back to the US and seeing Simon and my house. Nathaniel also feels the same.

not long now

Birmingham..............

2008-07-08T14:19:00.001-07:00

Nathaniel and I left Newcastle on a very wet Monday morning, using British Rail and our travel card we sped south, The train are looking pretty nice since i last used them a few months ago or maybe it is just the East coast ones that are a bit slummy!!

The journey was only 3 hrs so we played games, dozed and ate our picnic lunch, i was just disapointed I got no phone reception at all. Arriving in Birmingham New Street, Daniel and Neil Robinson were there to meet us, we sped back to their house and had 24 hrs of fun with them and jacky and Frankie, playing, the nice walk along the canal and feeding the ducks, with - you guessed it rain!!!!

The next day we departed for our journey to ST ALBANS our final destination.

Glasgow and beyond

2008-07-01T10:31:00.001-07:00

Tuesday - with John feeling a little queezy we decided to drag him round the science Center in Glasgow, as John has all his clocks set hours in advance we arrived there at 10.30 and spent 6 hrs learning how to build Rockets (and fire them across the park), juggle (with scarfs and balls and then moved on to spinning plates), blow bubbles and many other cool science things, we enjoyed a picnic lunch and a Nando's dinner,

then returned home to rest, a long day but........................John is feeling better.

Wednesday - Headed over to Loch Lomond after taking the train from Coatbridge to Balloch, again it was a very grey and wet day but we felt we could still see some amazing sites and it would be a fun train ride. Exploring the woods, seeing the lake and enjoying a pub lunch were some of the adventures we saw and also had the chance to introduce Nathaniel to Midgies, it was so exciting he wanted to back the next day too...

Thursday - Heading back over to Edinburgh to spend time with Julie, Cameron, Andrew and Gracie, after a few hours at their house we headed to Vogrie Country Park for a play and a picnic. The climbing frames were amazing and the kids had a lot of fun playing in the bushes and climbing trees, unfortunately the rain came down and although not too bad and certainly didnt bother the kids as they fished for frogs and tadpoles, during the pine cone hunt it just got so bad we had to make a dash for it! We are still drying off...............................................after a great mac and cheese dinner, we headed home exhausted! The day ended with torrential rain and thunder and lightening which had John hiding under the bed for the rest of the evening

Nathaniel with Cousins Andrew (left) and Cameron (right)

Friday - A very relaxing morning before we drove down from Coatbridge to Carlisle to meet mum who took us back to Newcastle, we stopped at Morrisons for some grub and then headed back, despite the rain, the journey was uneventful and since about 5pm the sun has actually been out making me extremely excited about tomorrow's prospects - we shall see!!

Only 2 days left in the North....................................

Scotland Calling....

2008-06-30T08:46:00.000-07:00

As i sit here snoozing away trying to upload my blog I discover, it isnt so easy to do here at my brothers house, not sure the problem he has a good computer, ahhh well,

so a recap from the past few days,

Saturday - We travelled up to Scotland in the van with a ramp and easier access - (boy those straps were hard though and despite getting dad locked in a toilet (long story ) we made our way to Uncle Alex house for pie and beans - yum, it was very strange Aunty Jean not being around you expect her to walk in the door at any moment but we were lucky that Janet and Kyla and Chris and Louis, Finlay and Hannah could join us - heck, we even helped build a bbq, we then headed speedily across Edinburgh to Colinton and had a lovely fe whours with brother Neil and his family, eventually we got to sleep about 10.30 after a very long day.

John Being attacked by his nephews and Gracie

I am now staying at Chez Main in Coatbridge where you have buckfast on tap and also tons of pizza's and tatties. I have no idea how John and mum think I will get through all the alcohol but I will try..........................................

Sunday we visited the Falkirk Wheel and the rob roy center in Callander taking a lovely drive through the trossachs and stirling shire, Nathaniel is still having a very profitable time weather wise (plenty rain) Despite Johnny feeling sick he was a trooper till the end and even stayed for dinner at Guidi's.

Everyone aboard the canalboat on the falkirk wheel

Monday - Nathaniel and I headed into Glasgow by train after waving off Petrus and Aggie at the train station, John was still very poorly and was staying in bed. Nathaniel was very excited to be in Glasgow and was shouting "yeh Glasgow" and even more excited that he had come to visit Dr Who's house!! Oh WOW,

Now on to the rest of the week!!

So far 2 dry days!!

meeno mino

2008-06-27T08:44:00.000-07:00

above is Great Grandad, Nathaniel and Gran

Today we thought the rain would not arrive and we could celebrate day 2 out of 7 of no rain, it did, however and as Nathaniel and Meeno mino were busy playing Tetherball in the garden he came running in he seemed to have forgotten all about the £1 he was owed.

Meeno mino is his new invisible friend (he tells you he is invisible so you cant see him).

Nathaniels new favourite place, PC world where he can play wii and playstation 3 as well as x-boxes, after PC world (it is actually a computer supply store) after that he enjoyed an ice cream with great grandad and a game of Snakes and Ladders.

Being a reasonably religeous family, it is rubbing off very well on Nathaniel and he has indeed turned quite "holy" saying prayers every meal time (about 12 times) and hope god has a good journey on the plane etc etc, it is funny how innocent minds work.

Another good thing happened today, Nathaniel and dad were heard laughing and having fun, this is great that dad is feeling better enough to have a good laugh with his grandson - Nathaniel certainly appreciates it!

Early start tomorrow for our trip to Edinburgh and Glasgow (to see my brothers) and I will catch up with you all when i can

Moving on to week 2 and a new destination

Closing Newcastle

2008-06-27T00:02:00.000-07:00

With just 2 days left here in newcastle, Nathaniel and I are both suffering from delayed jetlag, tired and napping it leaves us awake till midnight some nights and very lethargic throught the day, the weather although isnt too terrible, it rains most days and is just so unpredictable.

We are now both missing our home and Simon but my head is wondering how Heather is getting on with Miss California.

I am really hoping some energy will kick in soon,

I cant stay tired forever! At least as I lie here Natey is in bed and has been since 8.30 last night so that has to be a good thing

A new week - Monday to Wednesday

2008-06-23T02:18:00.000-07:00

Monday - the day started well, I awoke at 6 (Nathaniel popped into the bed) had a quick chat with Simon on Instant messenger) and then headed out and completed a 6 mile run, not bad and my new trainers still were white despite the rain and mud on the paths. Nathaniel is very keen to climb up the loft.

A trip to the park and Asda and we ended the day with a stroll around hexam and a definate unrealistic expectations with regard to a wheelchair and a steep slope, it was a beautiful place and we enjoyed the shops, garden and park, Natey picked us flowers.

Nateys grace - Dear god, thank you for our dinner, and I hope you have nice dinner too with your..... (does god have a son? he asked and dad breathed as if it was his final breath, I assumed he was shocked by the question mum thought he was ill, we didnt discover who was right! ) with your son and a good breakfast too and if you tell me what you want I will make it for you, Amen

Tuesday - We had a quiet morning, I caught up with a few phone calls then met a friend Emma, Her mum and kids Zach and Caitlin, mum came too and we had a lovely lunch chatting and eating at the Toby Carvery, the rain started again so only 1 dry day so far, and we have had the forcast for another 5 days rain, I laugh when people say we experienced a bad summer last year this year is proving no different.

I lie here at night listening to the rain and as I look out the window I am reminded how light it gets here 10.30pm and still as bright as ever......oh well, time to sleep.

Wednesday - a quiet day, I ran for over 6 miles over the derwant walk, to be totally honest it started off as a 3 mile run but then it was kind of easy and beautiful so i kept going then got lost, after a few detours i finally made my way home thanks to my forerunner. Arriving home I found Nathaniel still in bed refusing to get up till i got back - bearing in mind i had been gone for over an hour and a half it was almost lunchtime, we headed to the shops briefly and then the park returning as there was an urgent need for a poo (natey not me).

Cbeebies was the order of the day for the afternoon and then a quick drive in the van borrowed for our drive upto Edinburgh, a chip supper was in order for dinner and the rain came down and down...........................................................................................................................

Sunny Sunday.......................

2008-06-22T12:07:00.001-07:00

really?? No not really, another rainyday initially which dried up but ended up with terrible gales, so we went to the beach- go figure that!!

The morning started by my dream about what route I would take to go running but when I awoke I was just still too tired, going to bed late at night and with jetlag has just been too much, also a few minutes into getting up the rain started, so it was just a relief that I hadnt gone out.

Instead of staying home stir crazy we decided to head to South Shields and the beach.

Arriving there it was windy but not too bad and we strolled along the beach front and headed to the funfair, Nathaniel had some shots on the rides and we shared some candy floss, after lunch we headed back to the beach as Nathaniel wanted a swim, it was so windy the sand actually hurt our legs but Nathaniel still enjoyed himself,

After a quite visit to the park and an omlette dinner, it was time yet again for bed

First Saturday

2008-06-21T03:00:00.001-07:00

After waking at midnight briefly and had some apple juice and a chocolate biscuit cracker sandwich, Nathaniel slept till 9.30 am - fanastic and I did a 3 mile run, so from that you can tell we are feeling better.

He also earned his 2nd pound (he gets one for ever rainy day), he was having a lot of fun in the rain getting wet jumping in the puddles and exclaimed he wants to move to Newcastle but daddy has to come too. Our first meal out was to Nando's and we ate so much I dont think we will be able for any dinner, we had a glass of wine and i ended up walking round Newcastle, in the cold wet rain almost falling asleep (note to self, dont eat and drink so much at lunchtime). I bought some magnetic games so we could wait playing ludo and Snakes and Ladders while Dad looks at the military bookshelf in Waterstones book shop.

We made it home and developed a second wind but I expect it wont last long!

The weather forcast is rain till thursday but i know it wont really be that, we are not that unlucky...............................................are we???

Now I just need to figure out what the number is for my phone, I have totally forgot it.

Fly Hi and Adore

2008-06-20T12:29:00.000-07:00

So the anticipation of flying is always full of mixed emotion, excitement, dread, the thought of the flight is so unknown and predictable.

Running down the gangway into the plane, you feel you could do this anytime you want. Such excitement and Nathaniel still has time to pause for 20 push ups.

Finding seats, moving blankets and positioning pillows are always important as well as trying to figure out what you may need for the first hour of the journey while the seat belts sign is still on.

Onboard we pop on our free socks and resist the temptaion to clean your teeth with the free toothbrush straight away.

Nathaniel didnt like the smell in the toilet, I tried to tell him it was "lemon fresh" smell but he didnt believe me,

He enjoyed Horton hears a who and i watched fools gold, Ps I love you and The other BOlyen Girl all of which i have seen but easy watching .

Only one major inciodent happened Nathaniel got stuck in the toilet and couldnt get out he was crying and thinking he wouldnt ever get out or see me again (he had insited on going himself, the time lapsed was only a few seconds but hours to him)

Security at London Heathrow continue to cause me great stress and upset, I really got upset at them and they stupid rules, i cant help but totally assume they are just using the "terrorist" game to make money, As if I have got nothing better to do than be a terrorist.................dont get me started,

We arrived safe and well at Newcastle and Nathaniel spent the next few hours asking to go home. I told him the planes only run every 5 weeks.

Lets hope for a happier boyt after a good night sleep.......................I am exhausted

Today is the day!

2008-06-19T07:18:00.001-07:00

Today Nathaniel and I fly back to the UK for 5 weeks, there is definitely mixed feelings and the usual - dread, of the journey, once I am on a journey it is fine but those days and hours leading up to it are hard. Trying to work out if we have bought everything, packed everything, you know you can always buy something if there is a desperate need, but I do like to try not to muy too much

Nathaniel has been very excited to Fly as he was looking forward to playing the games, especially hangman so we felt very sad to tell him we would not be on the "GiGi" plane but instead British Airways and with the terrible selection of movies listed below, I hope we sleep soundly! He is also very worried about the rain (remember he is experienced in UK weather) so I have told him I think it wont rain every day and I will give him a pound for every rainy day and we will count the rainy days - he seems happy with that

1.	Movie	The Spiderwick Chronicles
2.	Movie	Charlie Wilson's War
3.	Movie	Fool's Gold
4.	Movie	Semi-Pro
5.	Movie	National Treasure: Book of Secrets
6.	Movie	Dan in Real Life
7.	Movie	Reservation Road
8.	Family movie	Cars

My ipod is full to the brim and I have a ton of Audio books too which seem his latest craze!

So at 1.30 Simon will come pick us up, we will get a subway sandwich then jump the Marin Airporter from San Rafael to the airport,

Flight departs at 6.50pm

see you somtime